It has been a bizarre day today infact the last few days have been quite bizarre actually, Saturday was lovely spent a.m and p.m with Matt. Yesterday however was quite the opposite I’d said to Matt that I couldn’t go out for dinner in the evening because I had so much work to do for the presentation I was doing today and he said fine but pestered me to go to lunch with him and when I say pestered I mean pestered so I agreed. I ended up being up until 3am this morning catching up with work. Anyway, at lunch he was so strange and “off” with me answering with one-word answers and that sort off thing really quiet and withdrawn so I asked him what was wrong and wish I wouldn’t have bothered because all he said was I’m TIRED. Which is believable because I’m bloody knackered but you know he pestered me to go to lunch if he was that tired he shouldn’t have bothered? After lunch he dropped be back off at my hotel and I didn’t speak to him again all day. Then at 7.30 this morning I had just arrived at the office and he rang to see if he could take me to dinner this evening I agreed and while in work I received a job offer in America, id been recommended by a previous employer and the jobs mine if I want it. Which I’m not sure about its temporary for 6 months so it’s a big risk to take especially since I’ve just found my feet in this job and I’m actually enjoying it. Anyway to cut a long story short at dinner tonight I told Matt and do you know what he said, not congratulations or o my god that’s an opportunity but “Don’t let me stop you” and in a quite abrupt manner aswell, well actually mate no I wont. I couldn’t even be arsed with him then who does he think he is and more to the point why is he being so strange? I left not long after choosing to get a cab instead of a lift off him and I have ignored the five texts he’s sent “what’s the matter?” “Are you ok” etc. So know I’m sitting looking out off my hotel window realising just how much of a lonely place London is and I never ever thought id say this but I miss Liverpool the sooner am home the better.