I haven’t been on here for a while just because I have been so busy I haven’t had time to write a txt let alone an entry. The past few weeks have been somewhat unreal me and Matt are officially an item still in the “can’t keep our hands off each other stage” which is lovely. I got some lovely presents for Valentines Day; he’s excellent at buying presents haha. The weekend after valentines, I went with him for a weekend break to his parent’s house in Devon. I have never been so nervous in my whole life but they were so lovely, genuinely nice people they even tried to teach me how to ride a horse. I’ve never rode a horse before the closest I’ve come to horse riding is having a ride on a donkey on blackpool beach when I was 4 so let me tell you a girl from Liverpool whose terrified of any animal bigger than dogs riding a horse for the first time is enough to crack anyone up, it was disastrous. Anyway one of the reasons we went down there was it was his dad’s 60th birthday, and they were holding a massive surprise party for him all was going great I was feeling like I really fitted in. Until just before the party when matt decided to inform me that an ex girlfriend of his was going to be there, well that’s fine because after all it’s a free world (but between you and me I was a little miffed). Then to make matters worse he told me to, well his exact words were “Gracie at this party I want you to believe half of what you see, and nothing what you hear”. I didn’t know what to think then I asked him and at first he just shrugged then when I asked again his reply was “ O know what families’ are like”. What the hell is that supposed to mean? Should I ask him again what he meant? And more to the point why did he say that straight after telling me his ex was going to be there? Does that mean something really bad happened in the relationship? Or they haven’t really split up? There are so many questions and so few answers. I was just waiting for something like this to happen. I’m scared to ask him again because I really am falling in love with him and I’m scared what the answer will be.
