Im not even sure i should be thinking this let alone writing it, but i just need to get it off my chest. I'm scared to tell my boyfriend or my friends incase they think im going mad. The think is just lately well to be honest for the past few months i've been doubting whether or not my mum is my biological mother. I actually think my auntie is.
I've never been close to my mother and we've never really got on , but thats not all you see about 6 years ago when my mum and dad seperated, i moved in with my auntie and uncle. I have long since moved out but we are still extremley close. they have two daughters aged 6 and 3, who call me their sister, a couple of times i have challanged them on this saying "no im your cousin" but my auntie and uncle have both said leave them alone if they want to say your their sister thats fine. I just think thats abit confusing for them but my auntie and uncle dont seem to mind.
I speak to my auntie and cousins everyday without fail and see them about 5 times a week even staying overnight in their house. I miss them terribly whenever im away and im really ashamed to admit it but i miss them more than my mum or brothers. Even as im writing this i've just got a txt message off my aunties saying. "Love you babe see you 2morra XXXX"
Thats not all though my uncle is my dads brother so my auntie isnt even blood related but quite a few times people have asked her if im her daughter and even just asumed, one lady in alton towers saying "god you can tell she's yours, she's the image of you" to my auntie. Who by the way is only 38 im 23 so its not like she looks old enough to have a 23 year old daughter.
Maybe im just confused or maybe i am going mad but its really doing my head in. I probably havent even made any sense but i cant make any sense of it in my head so its not easy to write it down.
Any advice would be grately appriciated.