Time for an update, as most of you now know I have discovered my “auntie” is actually my “mum”. I am not going to go into to much detail because it is still quite raw but with everyday, it gets a little better so maybe one day I’ll tell you all what happened from the start but for now I’d like to keep it private. Anyway, my life as always was a little bit complicated so another little complication like that was never going to slow me down. Because I had sort of guessed, anyway I can’t say it was that much of a shock but having it confirmed was the hardest thing because your mind starts to wonder, you’re full of questions, that do need answers but I was scared to ask. Its like you wake up one day and find out that your life is a lie one big humongous lie that probably started out quite small and innocent all 23 years ago but one lie just leads to another and another. An it’s not just me who has been lied to I’ve got brothers and now two sister’s they didn’t know either its just one big tangled web of deceit. Matt’s been so sweet about it all just being their and giving me lot’s of cuddles but when something like that happens it make you start to evaluate everything and everyone in your life and right now I’m really not sure if matt still has a part in my life.