reality diary

Ziltch! From katie1159 in parallel universe (1 day old)

Nothing feels exciting anymore :(… more

“I often think that the night is more alive and more richly colored than the day.” Vincent van Gogh! From katie1159 in parallel universe (1 day old)

http://www.earthcam.com/uk/england/london/?cam=leicester_wmv I want to be one of these people - I want to feel ALIVE!… more

neanderthal man From katie1159 in parallel universe (1 day old)

Sometimes I wonder about myself - I really bloody do. I visit an old lady - she is lovely and I’ve seen her on and off for over a year. I’ve visited her more often recently and just about every … more

Age doesn't matter! From katie1159 in parallel universe (3 days old)

My 3 year old Grandson told me last night I was an 'old lady'! An 89 year old man this morning told me I was a 'beautiful buxom YOUNG woman' and was surprised that I didn't have a boyfriend.......!… more

no title From katie1159 in parallel universe (4 days old)

I feel so sick. I've felt like this every morning this week. I just DO NOT want to do my job another day longer. Oh god what do I do?… more

oh no From katie1159 in parallel universe (6 days old)

I had a can of coke in my pocket and as I came upstairs it caught on the child gate and started to fizz out - trouble is my phone was in my pocket and now it won't work!… more

photo memories! From katie1159 in parallel universe (6 days old)

A few weeks ago my sister in law asked my mum if she had any photos of my brother who will be 40 in December. As she was looking for photos of him she found one of me and K. She rang me up and … more

another sad event! From katie1159 in parallel universe (6 days old)

B had to have their dog put to sleep today. It's made me really sad. She was an old dog and she couldn't hear or see or walk She was as much a part of the family as anyone - when Little J … more

fooling myself?! From katie1159 in parallel universe (8 days old)

I really like V! I took him off my facebook cos he was seeing someone & B told me too cos she doesn't like him - but she doesn't like anyone! Anyway now he's not seeing her & I don't kno… more

Beds From katie1159 in parallel universe (8 days old)

I can't afford one so I don't know why I'm bothering writing this - however - I am sick of waking up cold in this bloody massive bed - wish I had a smaller one but then is that really giving up on the… more

enough is enough! From katie1159 in parallel universe (9 days old)

Oh the depression is back in full swing I am so sick and tired of being so lonely - nothing I am doing is working Fuck it - fuck it all - there really isn't any point to my life what so f'ing ev… more

A little bit pleased with myself! From katie1159 in parallel universe (12 days old)

I'm feeling pretty pleased with myself tonight I got told today I have an 'outstanding knowledge' of effective ways to communicate with my old folks! :D Trouble is I see it as a normal every day… more

Envy is the art of counting the other fellow's blessings instead of your own From katie1159 in parallel universe (18 days old)

I finally fell to sleep sometime after 5am! Up again at 7.30am - I am so tired! Oh well it’s not as if I’ve got some sort of extraordinarily exciting life to be getting on with is it? I’m down i… more

NHS Direct! From katie1159 in parallel universe (18 days old)

What a day it has been! Firstly B and the babies are poorly. B thinks she has swine flu although she has now had it 5 times since it first came to the UK! She is poorly but I don't seriously think … more

Another heartache :( From katie1159 in parallel universe (18 days old)

My mum has been diagnosed with Macular Disease she has to go for laser treatment and injections a week on Monday. I am so upset and worried about her - I've looked it up and the chances of her rega… more

The little things! From katie1159 in parallel universe (19 days old)

Oooo V (B's next door neighbour) asked her yesterday why I removed him from facebook! Can't believe he noticed!… more

to cross to think of a meaningful title! From katie1159 in parallel universe (20 days old)

I am a tad pissed off this morning! Over the past few weeks I have been promised my own round at work due to a girl going on maternity. It’s a piss simple round - no washing shitty arses or push… more

Why? From katie1159 in parallel universe (20 days old)

Why didn't I hold his hand when he died? Why did they rush me into a little room? I'd been with him every step of the way for 24 years - I'd seen things no one should see - I held his hand time … more

The memory of happiness makes misery woeful From katie1159 in parallel universe (22 days old)

I’ve been thinking about writing this all day. I have just been so tired with my job over the past few weeks I’ve not felt like writing - I’ve been working 7/6 with a 20 min break for 2 weeks now … more

nothing much From katie1159 in parallel universe (26 days old)

Why am I pretending to everyone including myself that I can stick this job till January? I am also so worried about H they think her overactive thyroid is now underactive. She is having loads of bl… more

wishes there was a place called 'toyboys r us' From katie1159 in parallel universe (32 days old)

Not much happening in my world at the moment. I've been busy with my NXQ though after todays carry on at work I am not sure I can stick it out until January. They've managed in 2 short weeks to … more

Fun? From katie1159 in parallel universe (35 days old)

I went out last night with S to a Thai restaurant in Leeds. The food was amazing and the Jasmine tea was really nice (I wasn’t sure I’d like that never having tried it before) The company was … more

Grief teaches the steadiest minds to waver From katie1159 in parallel universe (37 days old)

I am feeling loads better at long last! I’ve never ever been so ill in all my life - I went back to work but I just couldn’t do it so had to take more time off - how I will now manage is beyond me but… more

Not well From katie1159 in parallel universe (41 days old)

I am so poorly :( I spent all weeked and Monday in bed - had to go back to that damn job yesterday as I really can not afford anymore time off - I just feel so ill all I want to do is get into bed … more

Night brings our troubles to the light rather than banishes them From katie1159 in parallel universe (44 days old)

I was just sat in my garden having a cig before bed - sobbing my eyes out - like you do on a Saturday night - when I realised I’ve just not got the adequate word power to describe how I am feeling any… more

missing him From katie1159 in parallel universe (45 days old)

Dunno what is up with me tonight - just missing my K so much Wish I could find a hand to hold ............................. xxx… more

turning back time From katie1159 in parallel universe (45 days old)

If I could turn back time to 3 years and 5 months ago ........... miss the old bugger so very very much STILL Love you K xxxxx… more

Dread! From katie1159 in parallel universe (46 days old)

So where has it got me? That’s the question that was running through my head whilst visiting K’s grave this afternoon. My two weeks off - where has it got me? No where - no where at bloody al… more

The greatest goodness is a peaceful mind. From katie1159 in parallel universe (48 days old)

By no stretch of the imagination has today been anywhere as near as good as yesterday. ‘Work’ rang me THREE times to see if I would work at the weekend - which I’ve had booked as holiday for over 2… more

It's all go From katie1159 in parallel universe (49 days old)

I've just applied to become an volunteer events photographer for a local charity. I was looking through the list and saw it advertised and thought "what have I got to lose?" Nothing to lose but … more